Thoughts As of Late

Well, I have to say, life is not a stroll through the forest. If you can read this, you probably already know this.
I miss having a friend I can talk to and hang out with. I have very few friends now. Well, I still have the same friends, but they are all kinda serving missions right now. Now, I feel like I don't have anybody. It was all too easy going to college this last year. I had friends at beauty school, and then I would come home to my roommates, all are my friends. Near the end, I took everything for granted, and was just dying to leave.
Now, I live at home. No income, no car, a flickering social life. I only have a handful of friends, all of which have schedules and their own lives. I can put more effort, but I feel like crap. I hate how I sound talking to people; I feel like I just blab, nothing but meaningless junk coming out, mostly a one-sided conversation. So I spend most of my days at home, moping around the house.
I dislike not having a schedule. This is why I feel down. I do not have anything going on! I have so much free time on my hands, I don't know what to do with myself. Try to find a job, yes. Sounds fabulous. Working, devloping people skills, and having money to pay the phone bill, help out, go dancing every once in a while, and most importanly, pay back that stupid loan so I may go on a mission!
I hope this post isn't too much of a Sally Sob Story, but hey, better to let it all out here then on Facebook, right?